Just Something Personal

                                      Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders                                                         Let me walk upon the waters Wherever You would call me Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander And my faith will be made stronger In the presence of my Savior -Hillsong United  Oceans  If these are the most beautiful words perfectly phrased into a song, I don't know what is. These words put together are so powerful and moving it boggles my mind. I've never heard something so sweet that brought tears to my eyes.  I've heard this song on the radio multiple times but this is that type of song that if you don't listen to it word by word it's only just...

I can not believe 7 months ago I was so indecisive and nervous about making the decision to stop working and go to school. Going to school was something I never planned on doing after I graduated high school. I was so set on finding a job I can make a career out of. I honestly thought I was going to find that at the post office which was my current job at the time. I went from making $1000 every two weeks to living off no income. It was the best decision I ever made. It made me appreciate the dollar more and enjoy every moment I had spent with my son. Although I was in school 8 hours of the day, 4 days a week, that was still a huge difference and I felt like I was spending way more time with my son. I absolutely love that!  Well here I am 7 months later and I'm done with school! Tomorrow I start my extern and honestly I don't know how to feel about it. When I got the call that I have a site to attend starting Monday, I was super anxiety and didn't know what to expect. Now t...

'Why are you looking for love Why are you still searching  As if I'm not enough' -By Your Side Tenth Avenue North  Every time this song comes on, my heart always drops at those couple of lines. How powerful are those words? They are so strong and meaningful. Well at least they are to me.  Today I started to ponder on the thought of my love for Christ. I found myself saying, 'This can't be all?' I need to feel more. This isn't the feeling all Christians have, I'm not quite there yet. And I know I'm not. I know what I need to do to be there. I struggle with trying to find love in a man. A man I can see and touch right in front of me. What I fail to realize is that I have some one who loves me so much that they gave everything for me. 'But God shows His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.' Romans 5:8  It's not that I don't understand that Christ did this for us, it...

You're boring, you don't do anything fun, 'you haven't had sex in how long?!' Isn't that the most typical ways to describe a Christian? But it's absolutely true for a non-Christian to think that of Christians, because they see fun as having drinks and going to parties. I just have to say, why do Christians think it's ok to drink?!  People can say Christians aren't fun because we see fun in a different way. We see that waiting to act is ok and it's the best for us. We also see there are no true benefits of behaving the way non-Christians do. God gave us boundaries because He cares about us and wants us to do right.  God gave us the 10 Commandments. To guide us; not to keep us locked up. Pastor Greg Laurie gave a little story that can show what the Commandments does for us: He sees a bird in his backyard, not any ordinary street bird but a bird that looks like it was someone's pet. Well, Pastor Laurie keeps his German ...

Last night while laying in bed, I was praying and I had to stop myself. I felt God speaking to me. I heard Him saying, 'How can you expect to receive if you aren't giving Me your all?' It was like I stepped out of that prayer and just pondered for a little. Reflecting back on where I was a couple months ago and where I am now, I see how I am not giving God my all. I use to read everyday and do my daily devo's and that just stopped. Coming up with excuses is getting old and in the end it won't matter. I received a text this morning that made me realize that I need to start focusing more on my relationship with God rather than praying for my wants in life.  That text read, 'If you do not commit your life to Christ, ultimately you will look back on your life and realize that you wasted it. But don't wait until the end of your life to figure that out. Figure it out now. We are blessed!' I love these daily text I receive because it gives me so mu...

Pastor Greg Laurie describes Satan's temptation as a pacifier. Just like pacifiers give babies no nutrients it just makes them happy, the devil can tempt us to give in to something that doesn't benefit our relationship with God, yet might make us feel good for the moment.  Do you find yourself compromising with The Lord or even the Devil? It's easy to listen to those temptations and give in to them because it's just one time, it won't ruin your relationship with God. Can you distinguish whose voice that is?  Also from Pastor Greg Laurie I remember he was talking about his relationship and marriage with his wife. He remembered having a conversation with then his girlfriend, he said, 'Don't come between my relationship with God.' That has to be the most powerful statement any Christian can make before their significant other.  That also applies to life in general. Don't let a petty decision come between your relationship with God....