Just Something Personal

Today's sermon was really tough! I feel like it wasn't the actual teaching of the bible that was difficult, but what he talked about after. We read from John 3 again, the end of the chapter. He focused on preaching about becoming who we are meant to be. It's so easy to continue to do what we are use to but when it comes to doing what we should be doing, it's not so easy anymore. With everything that we do in life, we need to make God our purpose. No matter if we are at work, school or at home, whatever we do we have to be doing it for God. Of course, I understand this but it's more than just understanding it. It's about actually doing it.  'He must become greater, I must become less.' John 3:30 It really hit me hard when he started to talk about doing what we are suppose to be doing. What God made us to do. I know I am now a mom; that's what I need to be doing right now. But what else. I have nothing in me that is pushing me to work or do ...

I went through every school year listening to the same type of music. That explicit rap and hip hop that talked about nothing but non sense. I use to love the beat and bass of the music and the words were just to catchy not to sing. Once I found out I would be bringing a new little person into this world, I knew it was time for me to change the music I was listen to. Music was a huge part of my life. Other than basketball, that was my stress reliever. I would pop in the ear buds or go for a drive and blast this awfully made music.  As I got farther along in my pregnancy and drove to work everyday, I started to put on some lighter music. I just felt like my son can hear this music now, still in my belly. I know he doesn't understand what they are saying now, but I don't want these types of songs to be his life soundtrack.  Not just for my son but for myself. I was starting to grow in my faith in God and this felt like the only thing that was holding me back from grow...

Today, overall, was just such a good day. Despite the way I was feeling, God just gave us all a great day; as He always does. The sermon given today was awesome! I love that God always knows what you need to hear and works through the message to get right to you. This message that was given today, I felt was speaking directly to me.  Our youth pastor gave a sermon based off of John 3; which is awesome since I am working my way through John. He focused on verses 1-21. What stood out most to me is how we need to love others just as God loved us. We all know the famous verse of John 3:16. But do we really understand that verse all together? 'For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' John 3:16 Just understanding that God loved the world, the people, every last one, enough to give His only Son for us. How are we treating others? It comes easy to be friendly and surround ourselv...

God has really been working hard in my heart and my mind. I feel it everyday and especially in every rough situation I go through. The past two or three days have been rough for me. My mind always like to wonder and think of every worse case scenario that could happen. I rebuke that because I know that's the devil trying to bring me down. Prayer has been the only think that kept me sane this past weekend. I had so many people praying for me and I felt a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. Along with prayer comes trusting in God. We must ultimately trust in Him that He will do everything right in our life; which of course He always does. (If we allow Him to) John 10:3 says 'The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out.' If we listen to God, He already knows us and all of our worries, so we can trust in Him.  John 10:10 says 'The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy: ...

A question was asked today in church, 'what person in your life do you trust the most?' The first thing that came to mind was, I trust God. I don't feel like any one is worthy of my trust other than Him. The next question was 'do you trust that person with everything?' This still relating to a physical person here on each right now.  I don't know. That was a tough question for me because I can honestly say, I don't think I trust anyone. Not enough to trust them with any and everything. I'm not that close to any one to put my trust in them.  I have been working my way through John and the sermon today in church walked through John as well.  John 20:31 'But these are written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God and that by believing you may have life in His name.' The whole book of John testifies that Jesus is God, Christ and the Messiah. Jesus showed His works to many people and with t...

I know the through the journey I have been through and am still going through, there was a moment where I saw God work a great miracle in my life and that's when I realized I really needed to follow Him. When I was all alone and didn't think I would be able to do this on my own, God made Himself so much more real to me.  '...and a great crowd of people followed Him because they saw the signs He had performed by healing the sick.' John 6:2 It actually took the people witnessing with their own eyes the miracles that Jesus was performing to be able to truly walk and follow Christ. It wasn't enough to just hear what was taking place; they needed to see it themselves. In the same sense, we might hear how God is working in some one's life, but having it happen to you is a completely different feeling.  Going to church since I was a kid, I heard so many stories of how God was performing miracles in people's lives. It was awesome to here. I loved the stor...

Sometimes I need to hear the simplest things, that I should know, in church that change my whole outlook on life.  A missionary couple that our church prays and supports, came back to give a message. What I got out of the message was just being able to serve God where you are. Some missionaries are called to foreign countries, while some are just called to serve God right where they are. Mr. Elbin addressed the hardship of leaving family and loved ones to go on these long mission trips. He made the point that even though it's hard to leave them, won't we be spending eternity with them in Heaven? If they know God and have a relationship with Him, we will always be with them.  I've been having a really hard time being away from my son. We have always been so close but with him being older our bond is only growing stronger. What I failed to realized, until today, is that even though I'm wasting time away from Kye when I need to be doing what I hav...