90 to 10
So today I realized how annoying this 'phase' is that I seem to go through every couple of weeks. Where I can go for a long period of time not thinking about my ex at all and when I do it seems like its just all anger toward him. And then I go through this 'phase' where I miss him like crazy. I don't know what it is but it bugs the crap out of me. I really don't even understand where it comes from or why it happens but it sucks! Today I just woke up so anxious on how things were going to go today when Kye's father came to see him. I didn't know if it was going to be awkward or simple or complicated. I really had no idea how it was going to be. But when he got here I thought it was going to be real quick. He was standing in front of me and all that ran through my head is: my son's father. But in the far far back of my head I was just thinking: I just want to go up to him and hug him and tell him I love him. Why? I have no idea. I wanted to say it