Just Something Personal

I can not believe how incredibly happy I was yesterday. I haven't been that happy in a long time. A year ago yesterday I started having early contractions and went straight to the hospital. 8 hours later I had my precious baby boy in my arms. I was the happiest I have ever been. Yesterday I woke up early bathed my almost one year old, we played and he napped. I went to get the cake and some supplies. I set up the party decorations and waited until 2 for all our family to show up. It's something about being around family and in my house that makes me so joyous. 5:48 came and past and I finally had a one year old! This past year went by so fast. I wish I could do it all over again. Looking back at the videos and pictures from the party I could tell that smile on my face was real. It wasn't the smile I put on everyday so my son, parents and family can see, so they know I'm doing ok. This smile was pure happiness. I felt like I had my little family back. For just those

Every year that past and Lent came around, I always looked at what people were giving up. I never really understood the whole thing but I understood the reason on why to do it. The one thing that I wasn't so sure about was, if this was a Christian thing. I don't know but this year when it came around and I saw a lot of people giving up some social networking sites, it made me think. I have been going through a lot lately and social networking really doesn't help. I always thought about deleting my Instagram but I know how much I would miss seeing all the mommies and their babies. I always thought about deleting my Twitter, but I just can't seem to let go of my poor self control with that social network.  These past couple days have been weird, pointless and heartbreaking, in a sense. So I figured it wouldn't hurt anymore than it already does to just give up these things and maybe it will better myself and I will gain more self control.  Back to the religious p