Just Something Personal

Ever since I found out I was going to have a little person I was so delighted! I couldn't of been happier; that is until I found out that I was having a boy! That was the best news during my pregnancy, I was getting the little boy I always wanted! When I had him it was the best day of my life and I loved him so much already! Every day being his Mother is the best. There is nothing in this world that can replace the feeling of being a Mother. I absolutely love being a Mother. Everything about it is amazing! There is no greater feeling in this world than the love and bond a Mother and son have.  With that said, I have become so attached to my little person! I can not stand being away from him. Ever since we entered each other's worlds I just want to be by his side as much as he does mine. I know this will soon wear off for him but I will always feel he is my little person, even when he is going off to college and eventually gets married and has a family of his own. Whew! Th

Lately I've been feeling like I'm going backwards. Meaning I don't miss my past, I miss what my past was. I don't miss the people, I miss what the people were.  I've been doing my best to read as much as I can every night. Studying through Luke. Surprisingly it's been making a lot of sense to me. I struggled with making sense of what the Bible is truly saying. Yet, lately it's been different. I feel God really working in my life. Even though I wish I could always have the easy way out, I appreciate my prayers being answer. I just wish my one prayer would be answered soon. I feel like it's getting closer and closer and then it just disappears. I try to change my prayer and what I'm asking for. I'm not so sure how to word it but I know God hears my heart.  I've always struggled with feeling lonely, mostly at night but I went through a point in life where I just didn't care anymore. But now that feeling is coming back and it sucks. I try to