Just Something Personal

Wow!  I haven't written forever and I pray I can get back to writing more because what that did for me was incredible. That was my quiet time where I could draw away from all the worries in life and just focus on God and what He has done for me.  This past year or so has been such a struggle for me. Marriage is HARD! I always knew it would be hard but not this hard! It got even harder when I drew away from God. I thought I could do this on my own when obviously this is a precious gift from God and why would I ever think I could do this on my own. I've struggled so much with balancing everything in my life. I've also struggled throughout this pregnancy. I have never been so emotional in my life. I feel like I lost all control over everything that was in order in my life. And I know the exact reason why. It has nothing to do with pregnancy or hormones. It has to do with my faith. I never denied to anyone or myself that I'm not struggling with my faith. I know for a...

He said to me, "My grace is enough for you, because my power is made perfect in weakness." So I'll gladly spend my time in weakness so that Christ's power can rest on me.  2 Corinthians 12:9 Through my failure, God is always glorified. When I feel my lowest, God is the first name that comes into my head. Through my weakness, I am still strong because of Christ's love that has been poured into my heart. (Rom. 5:5) While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8 When I didn't yet accept Christ into my heart.. He still died for me, He still loved me and He still wanted me. So when I feel like I am completely failing at everything I am doing, Jesus Christ is still Lord! He will always remain the same; today, yesterday, tomorrow.   I may fail but Christ never changes. That's the power in my life. No matter where life takes me, I know my God is always the same and I can always count on Him to be there and put all my pie...

Wow! It's been almost a year and so much has happened in my life! I fell off this wagon of writing every night or so but I was inspired to do this! I need to, it keeps me grounded and on the right path.  So here I go again! This morning on my way home I turned on my daily devotion and there were two places in The Bible that were the focal point: 1 Peter 3 and Ephesian. God pointed me when I got home to read the rest of 1 Peter 3 and I'm sure glad I did.  I have been in a battle with myself for a while on where the line is drawn between being taken advantage of and being a Christian who loves. For the past year or so I feel like I have been so loving, caring and compassionate to people who really don't deserve it in my eyes but being the Christian I am, I know that I am suppose to show love no matter what.  In 1 Peter 3 starting at verse 8 Peter starts talking on the topic of 'Suffering For Doing Good.'  As a believer of Christ I am to be like mi...

I think it was up to just now that I realized what I have been doing wrong all this time. I have been telling my self over and over again that I need to fall back into my old routine. I kept talking about changing certain things I do and how I spend my time. I would dwell on reminding my self I need to sit down tonight and take a break. All I was doing was saying things, I wasn't putting them into action. I can remember always hearing my dad saying the phrase 'you need to stop talking about it and just start doing it.' It's so true. We can talk and talk about things that we want to change, but it's not until we just start to do these things, then we see the change we want. It's really as simple as that.  Going over my bible study, I came across Luke 6:46 'But why do you call me 'Lord, Lord,' and not do the things which I say?' I claim to have this wonderfully powerful God but I fall short in doing the things that He is asking of...

Just like in my last post, I talked about how we tend to try and fool others by claiming we are the strong believer we say we are, but the way we act proves other wise. Well, after reading through James 3, James kept right on the same path and continued on teaching us about how we need to watch our words. Our tongue may be one of the smallest parts of the body, yet it is the most powerful. We can hurt some one with just a couple word or even with the tone we use when we use our words. It made me think of the saying, 'Sticks and stones my break my bones, but words will never hurt me.'  I don't know who came up with that saying but they are so wrong. Yes, we should teach ourselves to not let words hurt us, but in reality, some times they can be very powerful and strong.  James tells us it's only those who use their words strongly who are the real mature ones, the ones who are strong in their faith and truly understand the power of their tongue. Our tongues are ...

My life, since the last time I posted something has been the biggest roller coaster! Constantly on the move and trying to get stuff done. It's just been so crazy and honestly I have been putting a lot of important things on the back burners. When I realized that the things that used to be important aren't so much of a priority in life anymore, I started to accept that things are changing and there was nothing I could do about that. I started to accept change that was for the worst. That's something I can't keep allowing in my life. Some things are really important and need more attention than others.  I was reading through James 1 this afternoon and God did it again by having me read exactly what He knows I need to hear. James talks about going through trials and how to get through them. He tells us what we need to do when we face these problems. Rather than accept the hardship in life, we need to fight through it with God on our side. We should receive the...

I was referred to Ephesians a little while ago and I have been slowly going through the first two chapters and getting a lot out of it. Paul is so deep and talks about God's love for us and how He blesses us. It was perfect timing to read this because I just started reading the book Crazy Love  by Francis Chan. These two seem to tie together so well. In Crazy Love,  Francis Chan breaks down everything we know about God but makes it so much more real. He stops us while reading to show us videos on YouTube, to hear him put verbally into words what he is trying to help us understand. It's crazy how much more real things seem when it is broken down in such great detail. I feel like this is something I needed to get me back on my Jesus kick. Just when I felt like I was slipping away, I was introduced to this book and it's helping me grow once again. In the beginning of Ephesians, Paul reminds us that the blessings here on Earth are nothing compared to those God has waitin...